Father and Mother

After reading back my posts, I decided to write something about my parents. My parents both are orphans, my dad grew up in a poor family, my mom is much more fortunate, she grew up in a rather wealthy family. Since young, my dad always need to help out my grandma, to sell candies, he hardly have any time to study, but somehow he still managed to do learn quite alot of things ( my dad's awesome!). Though he quit school at an early age, I'm not sure when, he came out and started working. Because of his determination, he managed to learn alot of skills from books, like mechanics, electrical works, water works, carpentry, metal works and etc. I also respect my dad, he is really awesome, even though I'm in university now, I still thinks that my dad is better than me, his knowledge compared to what I learnt since primary until now, I'm still just not enough. Though he is not highly educated( my grandma was uneducated and poor), he still able to learn so many things, and able to feed us and give us a heart-warming family. I love my dad, he is totally awesome, I respect every single decision he made, and most of all, he is the father that I give my highest respect to.

My mom, she finished her secondary education, she was offered a place in Taiwan University, but due to some odd reasons, she had no choice but to turn it down. She is a loving mother, a strict teacher, and an awesome cook. I miss her cooking. When I was young, I didn't understand why she's being so strict to me, always forcing me to do lots of homework, go to lots of tuition. When I was 15, secondary 3 I think, I was going to take an important exam, PMR, at first I didn't care about the exam, I upset my parents, they got really disappointed in me, but I still don't really care about it. But then, one day, I was gaming, then I started to think of my parents, like how hard they work just to give me proper education, and thinking of how much effort they put into it, and my carefree attitude about it, I started crying. From then on, I made a promise to myself, I will study very hard, not to impress anyone, but so that I can change my parents' life. So that they can have an easy life when they retired.

Now, I'm here, doing my 4 years degree, and thinking back my goal, I need to thank my parents, because of them, I made it this far, I finally can fulfill my promise to myself with another 4 years. Without God's grace, I can't made it here, His guidance lights the path that I'm taking, leading me to His destiny.

Quiz and exams

Just finished my quiz today, and I messed up the quiz. Anyway, exams are coming, so I should be worrying about the exams rather than crying over my quiz, though I could have studied harder for my quiz.

There's always this thing, that I keep on wondering how should I handle it, and voila it is the relationship. I failed lots of time, if there's an exam for it, I could have retained for many years. A lot of people says that relationship is easy if you know how to handle it, but I guess the theory is wrong, because even if you know how to handle your relationship, it's just your part, there's another part, which is her part.

Relationship is always complicating, since the start of the first date, to courtship, to marriage, to family, and to death. How I wish it will be as easy as studying biology, if you understand the concept, for example PCR, you can use that concept anywhere, but it is totally different from relationship. You understand your current "situation" doesn't mean that you will understand the next one.

It is hard, really hard, if you are going to find the one that is going to spend her whole life with you, yea that is going to be hard. It is easy to just find any random girl to be your girl friend, but 90% of the time, you will just have fun and move on. That happened to me lots of time, I get the girl, after awhile, things changed, breakup, and move on, and get another girl.

I stopped behaving like that, I hope. I changed my view, what I truly wanted. Girls like bad boys, yea that's true, but at the end of the day, you are still a boy, and that girl is just another typical girl. Good guys are not easy to be, but the reason we are being good, is because we understand what we want, and hopefully she has the same mindset, and wanting the same thing.

I'm drunk anyway, just finished gathering with my friends. I met this girl, she's being nice, I know. I guess I like her, just hope that everything goes well, and I really hope that we can have something special between us.

Just want to post this, a really nice song, Here Without You by 3 Doors Down. 


I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me, yeah


I think the meaning of the lyrics is about missing your love ones, not too sure, not an expert in interpreting lyrics.

But still an amazing song. I'm not sure what I will do now, but surely God will lead the way.

Life In Singapore 2011

It's been so long since I post something on this blog, been really busy with studies, sports and stuffs. Thinking back the first year, in Ngee Ann Poly, everything seems to pass by so fast, that I realised that I had missed out alot of things, made a lot of right and wrong choices. I can't really say that stay in Biomedical Sciences is a good choice or went into Biomedical Lab Technology is a wrong choice, both gave me different experience, and different exposure of life. If I had stay in BMS, then I will missed out some important lessons, and lead a different kind of life than what I'm having now, though I really want to stay in BMS if I had a second chance, but I feel content with what I have now.

I remembered a friend of mine told me this, we are humans and we will make mistakes whether we like it or not. But there are some mistakes that we can avoid and there are some mistakes that are irreversible.But if really we made such mistakes, take it as a lesson of life, and move on and never ever repeat the mistake again.

When he told me this, I was like, who will ever make such serious mistakes, and soon enough I realized that I made a really big mistake that nearly destroy myself and my future. You won't know until you did it, and the truth is always painful, but that's when we start to grow,mentally and emotionally.

God really help me to get through this entire situation. I may suffered more if I didn't listen to God, I may not even finish my studies. No matter how many times I fail, God will always be there to lift me up again. Live by faith and not by sight. God will always be with us.

Because You Loved Me

This song reminds me of you, you were my strength when I was weak, you were my voices when I couldn't speak, you were my eyes when I couldn't see, you were the one that held me up and never let me fall, you gave me faith because you believed, I'm everything I am now, because you loved me.

Club

I had a great holiday back in Malaysia, and I'm glad that my family is still doing well. My parents looked more energetic than before, my brother learnt tattooing, kinda cool when I looked at his tattooes, he's cool anyway. Visited my sister back in KL and looks like her slimming plan works well, nephews were so active that I can't handle them at all, after that went back to my hometown for another couple of weeks and took a flight back to Singapore.

I was dead tired after landing, head back to my apartment straight  away and hit the sack. Then I went out to meet my friend, after we had dinner we went to drink. It's been like almost half a year since I drink, was really busy back then, and now I finally got time to go for a drink. The club was as crowded as ever. We hop around the clubs and met this weird guy starting to talk to us and I met someone from my hometown too, suprising. Well we had fun that night, at least I get to have fun for awhile cause I'm looking for a job now, hope I'll get one soon. Well everything starts from scratch, and since I'm a fresh graduate, wasn't really expecting any high salary, as long as can cover my expenses that's enough, I think. Wondering how long can I last if I ever get a job... well anyways God has His plans, I believe I'll get one that really suits me.

NAPFA and Blood Donation

I had Napfa test on last Thursday, was very nervous and excited. I managed to complete the 5 stations, pull-up, sit-up, standing board jump, shuttle run, sit-and-reach, and managed to get 23 points for gold. But the last station, which I hated the most, 2.4km running. I'm not a regular runner, and I didn't train much for it. So I probably won't be able to finish within 11mins, which is grade C to achieve gold. But anyway, my aim is to get Napfa jacket, which looks nice to me, and I finished 2.4 km within 12mins, grade D which the overall grade is silver. I actually didn't train much for Napfa, especially standing board jump and 2.4km running, but I know that there's certain someone will help me through.

I was thrown with alot of thoughts during my 2.4km running, and I had a cramp during the last lap. There are thoughts that asked me to give up, but there are thoughts that encouraged me to press on and move forward. The thoughts the devil gave me are filled with fear, but when the thoughts of God came into my mind, they're peaceful, and He asked me to endure, just a little longer, then I will get my reward. So, instead of stopping down, I sprinted and crossed the finishing line. After that, I fall on the ground, and gasping for air, but I know that I had achieved my goal, even though I never get a gold and get silver instead, but that doesn't matter, because all I want is just that jacket.

After Napfa, I went to donate blood, which I promised myself that I will do it after Napfa. I had this newbie nurse to do for me, I noticed that she was very nervous, because her was hand shivering when she was holding the needle. But I tried to calm her down, and keep smiling. She inserted the needle into my arm, and I guessed she missed the vein, and pierced my muscle. It was painful at first, but after that it felt like my arm was burning. She was panic, and luckily the head nurse was there, she adjusted the needle and hit the vein, then my blood started to flow out into the bag.

Well, of course that was very painful, even now I still can feel the stinging pain when I pressed my bicep. But the most important thing is, she learnt something from it. Nobody is perfect, everyone starts from scratch, so there is no point to blame her for poor techniques or anything. I just hope that she is able to improve after that :D

God bless