3rd SMA Karate Championship 2010

Alot of things flash through my mind when I first heard about SMA Championship, like am I up to the challenge? Am I well trained enough? Do I got enough guts to face my opponent? Well,everything was answered when I took part in the tournament, and finish it with all I got. Its a tough fight no doubt about it. Never in my life I feel so threatened, feel so pressured when I was facing my opponent. He's from Nepal, slightly taller than me, darker skin, bold head, doesn't look like any fighters I ever met. He is fierce, fast, aggressive. I was kinda scared, but after received some punches and kicks, I knew that I can do this. His kicks are strong, but I managed to block it with my knee and counter back. After a few rounds, we got into a draw, its troublesome, because if I don't get a point soon, its gonna be the judges vote, and I don't like it. So, I try some punches and kicks, but didn't get him(well he's a blackbelt anyway, found out after the match), so the match dragged further on, until both of us were dead tired. After 3 minutes, we were still in a draw, so we're going to fight another 1 minute, if we still draw, then the judges decide. And so, I wished it didn't, but it was the time for the judges to decide, and I lose, because he's more experienced and aggressive than me, well I agreed with that too. But I never feel embarrassed or discouraged, because I learned something from it.That is winning is not just about training hard and proper technique, also about your heart, guts. Although I didn't win anything, but I'm proud of myself because I faced a worthy opponent.

Karate is not about strength and training, its all rounded. Remember that.

Love In The Ice

It's not your fault that those hands are cold ,clinging onto the wounds of the past
Afraid to love someone by turning your back against the true meaning of the story
The heart that is hugged ,slowly melts......like an ice...
To be loved by someone, by anyone ,it makes life shines
If it was me ,and it is me,I will make your heart once again ,warmth with undying love

Fates play .Even though it still makes your heart ache when your tears end ,a ray of light will shine into darkness ,we can grasp it.
Sorrow and loneliness ,that every person endures ,and searching for ,and hold onto those ,who will be the one ,which will share the joy and pain ,which will last forever.

Yes ,for you the place is here ,don't worry ,don't falter anymore ,I will protect you ,will whatever strength I left. Because it is love ,my love ,as beautiful as it is miserable ,don't be afraid.

Let you know my mind, let you know my heart , this beautiful ,beautiful moments ,it is ephemeral.

For I will warm your heart will undying love ,melts like an ice

My Religion: I am a Christian ,a letter to God

Yes I am a christian ,from baptist church. Its been a year that I haven't attend any Sunday Service ,I am very sorry, I always came up with alot of excuses when people asked why I didn't attend any church ,like I'm busy with schoolwork ,I'm busy with my training ,I'm busy this ,I'm busy that .To think that I actually see those things more important than God ,I'm really not a sincere christian at all.

I break the rules that I ,promised myself to Jesus that I will not break them again .I break them again and again ,and I'm always pray for forgiveness ,I can't even keep a simple promise ,and I expected that Jesus to keep His promise .Yes ,He always listen to my prayer ,and always forgive me. But I took advantage of His gentleness and Forgiveness ,I'm not a good christian after all.

Today ,I searched some christian songs ,and there's a song ,Here I am To Worship ,with a video ,about Jesus. I cried when I watched the video ,that Jesus ,died on the cross for me, for you ,for us. I thought of alot of things after that ,like what am I doing all the time ,and I feel that God is love ,Jesus still loves me ,as He still listen to my prayer every night ,guide me through all the obstacles ,help me overcome all the difficulties, and hold me ,when I'm falling down ,help me stand up when I'm defeated.

I'm really sorry for all the things I had done to you Lord ,I may not be a good sheep ,but I'll try my best to be one for You .

Doctor and DJ

We'll know to doctor heals people's wounds and injuries and saving people's lives. It's my dream to become a doctor. I am not attracted by fortune and fame of being a doctor ,what attracts me is ,saving people's life ,and helping those in pain .The feeling of happiness and satisfaction is really unmeasurable ,diagnosing people ,and find out the cause of the illness ,and treat it ,and see the patient recover from illness ,and feel proud and happy about it ,this is what a doctor should feel ,not because for the high paid,big house and big cars ,but the feeling of wanting to help people ,is very important .Even if unable to treat their mental injuries ,but at least treat their physical injuries ,so to lessen their pain.

Yes ,I don't have money if I really wanted to study Medicine ,but I believe if there's a will ,there's a way. I won't give up my dream of being a doctor unless God tell me ,this career does not suits me ,if not ,I'll fight hard ,and let my dream come true.

DJ ,is another one of my dream job ,although I don't know much about a DJ does ,but what I do know is DJ mixes songs ,compose Techno ,Electro ,Trance, awesome songs ,which when I listen to them ,I feel relaxing .I know afew DJs, DJ Splash ,with his Bass Is Kicking ,which is really awesome. DJ Raaban-Drop The Base ,DJ Mangoo-Eurodancer ,Tune Up-Feel Fine,East Clubbers ,and so on.

Its tough to be a DJ ,though it seems kinda easy ,but being a DJ ,you need to have creative mind, aspiration ,and alot of patience ,to compose a song.

Being a Doctor or DJ is tough ,what I believe is ,nothing is easy in this world ,even if sweep floor also a tough job ,imagine keep sweeping for 8 hours ,I don't think its an easy task.

Still ,I wanted to be a doctor the most now ,even though the journey will be tough ,but I think it'll be worth it.

Karate

I always wanted to learn karate since young ,but then there's no dojos at my place ,so I joined TKD when I was still primary ,but the thing is ,my parents don't allow me to spar with people ,because my body size quite small ,so slowly I began bored with TKD .Then in Secondary School ,still wanted to learn karate ,but my school does not have one ,the only martial arts are TKD and Wushu ,so I learned Wushu(Shao-Lin type) ,interesting ,and challenging. But I had to give up on Wushu cause workload increased when I reached Form 3 .Until I came to Ngee Ann Poly, I found out that there's karate club ,also kickboxing club ,but I choose karate cause its more on technique and speed ,also mental training .

Today I went for tournament ,after the match with my opponent ,I found out that ,I got slightly improved than last tournament ,at least I know what I'm doing in the arena this time .But still there's alot of space for me to improve .I will do my best to improve my karate ,not only for my CCA points ,also to let people know that ,actually karate is a good sport ,not violence .

I hope I can join the tournament in March ,which is coming soon .

19th Birthday

Today's my 19th birthday ,but celebrated it with some friends yesterday ,then around 7pm went to Clarke Quay ,when I reached there ,there's alot of people ,cause its Saturday night I think .Roamed around Clarke Quay ,I found that there's alot of different kind of pubs and bars around ,some have hospital settings ,that bar is called Clinic ,kinda fun ,but abit creepy to me.There's a bar called Rebel ,15$ admission ,2 free drinks ,but the cocktails not that good. Plus its around 10pm ,very few people in the club ,so I went out to Zirca and Lunar.There's Lunar ,just next to Rebel ,but I can't go in cause I'm in short pants ,but I showed them my arm(got the sign) ,still they insisted that its their club policy ,so I went to look for Zirca ,Zirca's behind Rebel ,there's 2 side of Zirca ,1 is for above 21 I think ,another is for below 21 .Zirca's setting quite ok ,but still very few people ,so I went out ,find something to eat first ,I passed by an outlet ,Spanish Food thingy ,I sit down ,ordered Ham&Cheese ,and the waiter recommended a drink ,called G-Point ,its basically a crazy mix ,not as strong as Long Island Iced-T ,but still ,kinda strong ,its Vodka ,Gin ,Rum ,Triple-Sec ,and frozen Lime ,so that's my first drink in Clarke Quay.
After that ,around 10.30pm ,people started to flood in ,I went back to Rebel ,there's alot of people inside already ,music's getting nicer ,I ordered Tequila first ,and sit at a corner watched football ,which kinda disappointing ,cause Liverpool's leading ,but when the match almost finish ,Man City scored twice ,2-2 ,kinda sad. Then I saw a fat guy dancing on the dance floor ,very funny ,then there were 2 guys competing each other on the dance floor ,but their dancing really sucks.LOL! Kinda boring ,I called my friends ,but most of them busy or tired ,then I messaged another friend ,which then said wanna change location ,Blu Jaz at Ophir Road.Before leaving the club ,I ordered Vodka ,not nice at all ,finished it ,then I went out ,roamed around ,then I saw this Clinic ,with hospital settings,kinda cool ,after found a seat ,I ordered Jager Bomb ,I thought its supposed to be a knockout drink ,but after finish it in 1 shot ,I don't feel a thing ,but after awhile the back fire is very strong ,then I ordered Flamming Lambo ,that's the time I almost knockout.So I rest awhile ,before heading down to Blu Jaz.
Its around 11.30pm ,I called a cab ,head down to Blu Jaz ,wanted to call my friend ,but unluckily my handphone out of battery ,around 12am ,I reached Blu Jaz ,and saw my friend that had just reached too .Blu Jaz is a pub ,the music is smoother ,not like Rebel or Zirca ,inside Blu Jaz ,not alot of people ,we found a seat ,and ordered Mojito ,which is mint mixed cocktail ,very nice and sweet .We're watching Arsenal -Sunderland match ,again ,very disappointing ,Sunderland scored ,and the match ended with Arsenal 0,Sunderland 1 .My friend ordered 1 jug of Tiger Beer ,after finish 1 cup ,I started to feel nausea ,maybe its Jager Bomb and Flamming Lambo ,then there's 2nd cup ,I can't take it ,ran to toilet and puked . After that ,I feel very dizzy ,so I told my friend its time to go home .
After I reached home ,I kept on puking ,very tiring ,and went to bed ,I felt like I'm floating although I'm on the bed,still ,after awhile I dozed off.Then ,its like regular Sunday morning ,woke up by the landlord's sons ,very noisy ,very irritating ,fighting each other over a toy.

1.5 years in Singapore

Quite awhile since I wrote something , It's been about one and a half years I stayed in Singapore ,yeah its true I got homesick ,but it's just a few months or less .Singapore lifestyle is quite the same as Malaysia ,but the weather is nicer than Malaysia XD .Coming to Singapore let me learned alot of things ,like how to take care of myself ,be discipline ,but one thing is ,human can't live without friends .Sometimes you'll find that some friends are like using you or anything ,but not all of them ,some can be really supporting ,helpful ,and make your day ,a very good day. Sometimes can be quite lonely ,so ,find something meaningful to do ,like community service ,join some clubs ,or hang out with friends .Studying here is quite stressful sometimes ,so got to know how to relax .I find that Singapore's quite a peaceful place ,but very competitive .Erm...(having a headache now) ,will put some photos and updates next time =D