Faith

Today I woke up quite late, so I missed out the first 2 services. But luckily I still went for the 3rd service, because the sermon is about Faith. Well the sermon briefly talks about Moses helped the Israelites escaped from Egypt and stayed in wilderness for 40 years. But amazingly, it is also talks about Jesus. First year of wilderness, the Israelites were complaining about thirst and Moses used his rod to struck (beating) the boulder, which represents Jesus on the cross. And at the 40th year in wilderness, the Israelites complained about thirst again, and this time, God asked Moses to use Aaron's rod which blooms, represents Grace,Life, Resurrection, to speak to the cliff (Jesus). But Moses didn't obey God and he used the rod to struck the cliff, Jesus's body, which represents the church! But still the water flows out abundantly, and the people and animals drank it. So basically it says, Jesus took the beating and there shouldn't be any beating to the people after that. Instead of beating, God wants us to love and speak to Jesus whenever we face our problems and don't beat ourselves or our loved ones.

The pastor also added this, this part I think is the most important part of the sermon. It is not LAW that makes the people to repent, but it is the LOVE of GOD that makes the people to repent. By forcing people to follow the LAW, it is like beating them and it's not gonna work as good as telling them how much Jesus LOVES them.

Also, Faith is important in our life, the word Amen is not just so simple as it is. It means rock in hebrew ,means your prayers are as hard as rock, and when you put Amen behind, meaning you're believing it that its going to happen, by Faith! Faith is the way that you believes in God, and Faith also shows that you Love God.

Don't stop believing, don't stop having Faith, Don't stop loving God.

Faith, Hope and Love comes together, it is the three virtues that a christian should have.

Memorizing verses

Memorizing verses is a joy, and everytime you finish memorize a verse, you can feel that you're much more closer to God. I recently just started to memorize verse. Its not alot, but I know someday I can memorize the whole book.

Its been 3rd time that God talks about the Cost of Following Jesus to me. The first time is during a cell group with Andre, I flipped through Luke, and the verses captured me, I pondered on it quite some time but i still dun get it. 2nd time its through Andre's work, reminds me of the Cost of Following Jesus, and 3rd time is through yesterday's cell group.

Its not easy to following Jesus, but if its His calling, I will, surely follow Him, let the dead bury their own dead, and I go proclaim the kingdom of God.

"No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the Kingdom of God." Luke 9:62

The Cost of Following Jesus (Luke 9:57-62)

This verse is the verse that I pondered upon, and keep thinking about it. It's a though Jesus is talking to me, are you sure you want to follow me, even though He has no home in this world, and you will be the same, you have to be ready for the mission even though it means to go ahead of your beloved ones, and never look back while you are doing His work.

There is strong feeling of me right now after I read this verse. Serving God is not an easy task, I maybe get killed in the way, but I know that even if it means to lay down my life just for the sake of glorify Father, I will do it. When its Father's calling, its just like my dad called me, I will answer it immediately, and put down what I'm doing and start his request. It is a joy and excitement when you're doing your dad's request, it is the same applied to our Heavenly Father. Even though my dad is poor dad, but I have a rich Father, who owns the world, and He is willingly to help me when I'm in need.

I pray to you Father please guide us through, and let us respond with joy and excitement when You called us to do Your work.

3rd SMA Karate Championship 2010

Alot of things flash through my mind when I first heard about SMA Championship, like am I up to the challenge? Am I well trained enough? Do I got enough guts to face my opponent? Well,everything was answered when I took part in the tournament, and finish it with all I got. Its a tough fight no doubt about it. Never in my life I feel so threatened, feel so pressured when I was facing my opponent. He's from Nepal, slightly taller than me, darker skin, bold head, doesn't look like any fighters I ever met. He is fierce, fast, aggressive. I was kinda scared, but after received some punches and kicks, I knew that I can do this. His kicks are strong, but I managed to block it with my knee and counter back. After a few rounds, we got into a draw, its troublesome, because if I don't get a point soon, its gonna be the judges vote, and I don't like it. So, I try some punches and kicks, but didn't get him(well he's a blackbelt anyway, found out after the match), so the match dragged further on, until both of us were dead tired. After 3 minutes, we were still in a draw, so we're going to fight another 1 minute, if we still draw, then the judges decide. And so, I wished it didn't, but it was the time for the judges to decide, and I lose, because he's more experienced and aggressive than me, well I agreed with that too. But I never feel embarrassed or discouraged, because I learned something from it.That is winning is not just about training hard and proper technique, also about your heart, guts. Although I didn't win anything, but I'm proud of myself because I faced a worthy opponent.

Karate is not about strength and training, its all rounded. Remember that.

Love In The Ice

It's not your fault that those hands are cold ,clinging onto the wounds of the past
Afraid to love someone by turning your back against the true meaning of the story
The heart that is hugged ,slowly melts......like an ice...
To be loved by someone, by anyone ,it makes life shines
If it was me ,and it is me,I will make your heart once again ,warmth with undying love

Fates play .Even though it still makes your heart ache when your tears end ,a ray of light will shine into darkness ,we can grasp it.
Sorrow and loneliness ,that every person endures ,and searching for ,and hold onto those ,who will be the one ,which will share the joy and pain ,which will last forever.

Yes ,for you the place is here ,don't worry ,don't falter anymore ,I will protect you ,will whatever strength I left. Because it is love ,my love ,as beautiful as it is miserable ,don't be afraid.

Let you know my mind, let you know my heart , this beautiful ,beautiful moments ,it is ephemeral.

For I will warm your heart will undying love ,melts like an ice

My Religion: I am a Christian ,a letter to God

Yes I am a christian ,from baptist church. Its been a year that I haven't attend any Sunday Service ,I am very sorry, I always came up with alot of excuses when people asked why I didn't attend any church ,like I'm busy with schoolwork ,I'm busy with my training ,I'm busy this ,I'm busy that .To think that I actually see those things more important than God ,I'm really not a sincere christian at all.

I break the rules that I ,promised myself to Jesus that I will not break them again .I break them again and again ,and I'm always pray for forgiveness ,I can't even keep a simple promise ,and I expected that Jesus to keep His promise .Yes ,He always listen to my prayer ,and always forgive me. But I took advantage of His gentleness and Forgiveness ,I'm not a good christian after all.

Today ,I searched some christian songs ,and there's a song ,Here I am To Worship ,with a video ,about Jesus. I cried when I watched the video ,that Jesus ,died on the cross for me, for you ,for us. I thought of alot of things after that ,like what am I doing all the time ,and I feel that God is love ,Jesus still loves me ,as He still listen to my prayer every night ,guide me through all the obstacles ,help me overcome all the difficulties, and hold me ,when I'm falling down ,help me stand up when I'm defeated.

I'm really sorry for all the things I had done to you Lord ,I may not be a good sheep ,but I'll try my best to be one for You .

Doctor and DJ

We'll know to doctor heals people's wounds and injuries and saving people's lives. It's my dream to become a doctor. I am not attracted by fortune and fame of being a doctor ,what attracts me is ,saving people's life ,and helping those in pain .The feeling of happiness and satisfaction is really unmeasurable ,diagnosing people ,and find out the cause of the illness ,and treat it ,and see the patient recover from illness ,and feel proud and happy about it ,this is what a doctor should feel ,not because for the high paid,big house and big cars ,but the feeling of wanting to help people ,is very important .Even if unable to treat their mental injuries ,but at least treat their physical injuries ,so to lessen their pain.

Yes ,I don't have money if I really wanted to study Medicine ,but I believe if there's a will ,there's a way. I won't give up my dream of being a doctor unless God tell me ,this career does not suits me ,if not ,I'll fight hard ,and let my dream come true.

DJ ,is another one of my dream job ,although I don't know much about a DJ does ,but what I do know is DJ mixes songs ,compose Techno ,Electro ,Trance, awesome songs ,which when I listen to them ,I feel relaxing .I know afew DJs, DJ Splash ,with his Bass Is Kicking ,which is really awesome. DJ Raaban-Drop The Base ,DJ Mangoo-Eurodancer ,Tune Up-Feel Fine,East Clubbers ,and so on.

Its tough to be a DJ ,though it seems kinda easy ,but being a DJ ,you need to have creative mind, aspiration ,and alot of patience ,to compose a song.

Being a Doctor or DJ is tough ,what I believe is ,nothing is easy in this world ,even if sweep floor also a tough job ,imagine keep sweeping for 8 hours ,I don't think its an easy task.

Still ,I wanted to be a doctor the most now ,even though the journey will be tough ,but I think it'll be worth it.